Oh thank you blogosphere for taking in my woes and troubles and helping me see the light! My last post was very raw and I thought and rethought it, many times. But it's real, it's my life and now...another day. and this day brings many exciting and new things.
Keeping the wheel of creativity rolling, I'm delving into a whole new project. Something very different for me, but something that I have been searching for, for a long time. I'm in the midst of rebranding, renaming, reshopping..and as soon as all of that is settled, I'll post!
"I want to buy you something, but I don't have any money, have any money"
This song has been my go to mantra when the money woes really get me down. Like today. My husband and I have this rotating fight that usually happens the day or two after he's gotten paid. Today's version was exquisitely painful. I haven't worked regularly , full time, in almost ten years. I've spent the majority of this time with part time jobs, freelance jobs, working craft fairs, trying to sell things I make..working in a hot dog stand. I really feel like I'm trying. I also feel like an idiot. and today's argument crossed the "well I make all the money, so I get all the say" lines. and I couldn't take it. I said, "Just because I'm not bringing money in doesn't mean I don't have an opinion". Crash boom bang, he leaves early for work and I get to stay home and wallow.
I'm not entirely opposed to getting a 'real' job..but what exactly am I quailified for? I spent nearly 12 years working in the craft industry, being the crazy creative person that I learned I am. How do I translate that into an office job? I don't get very many call backs. and yet I'm still told that I don't even try to get a job. I know my husband and I have very different philosophies on a lot of things..but we just can get to an even ground on this. It's driving us both nuts.
Anybody out there have this problem? How do you stay sane?
